My ankles don’t hurt as much. My feet don’t hurt at all. I’ve lost 50 pounds, gained back some, but still hovering at 50. I am seriously cranky today and have been all week. I think it’s related to the scale and it may be that I am sharing my daughters’ cycle. But mostly I think it’s because I am a cranky bitch with no intent on bringing goodness to anybody. I don’t deserve what I get but I have the grace to be grateful for it and I live in that world most of the time. Today I plan to just pretend I’m feeling fine. We will see if “act and your actions will follow” is horseshit.
I’m already bored. And I hate exercise. So, starting off with a good attitude. I am giving myself 2 years to lose 120 pounds. While that averages out to a little a month, I am really giving myself the goal of 60 pounds by July 2012. That way when I drop off my second child at college, it won’t be as embarrassing to huff and puff around the campus with all the moms who are 15 years younger than me. I’ve tried and lost weight before but this has to be it because my knees and ankles hurt all the time now. I am wheel chair bound unless I can shake this monster. So I’m just putting it out there and seeing how it goes. Good on me.